frustration

I watched a film this evening which seemed to touch every emotion in me. Defying Gravity was frustrating, sweet, funny, annoying, cringeworthy, and sexy. I t made me much more horny than any porno film could. The fact that it reminded me so much of when I was coming out was kind of scary.
I remembered vividly on my way home U2, With or without you. It was my theme for 1987 and it was when I had finally accepted I was never going to be like all my other friends.
I knew well before that, that I was different but 1987 was the first time I accepted that although I was different I was also not going to lie and try to be something I wasn’t.
If you haven’t seen defying gravity I recommend it. Although very cheesy, and painful at times, the emotional reminders of your youth whether you are straight or gay will be worth it.
Sexy leads and never quite shown or mentioned love lives left me horny to the point of being frisky. Spence and Glenn had to contend with ‘Frisky Iain’ this evening.

I also admitted to myself this evening why I had been in such a miserable mood these past few weeks and especially today. I had been putting it off but it was inevitable really. I am so doing the escapism thing with films at the moment.

On the gossip front today I discovered that Blogger E had managed to have his wicked way with a certain young secret santa. So that’s a whole new blogabet quiz I reckon!

panic room

Went to see Panic Room this evening with Glenn at the Odeon in Streatham. Was really good. I’ve been watching a lot of films recently and I’m not sure if it is escapism or not. Yesterday I was very hungover from a Saturday night of drunken debauchery. I had to be dragged for breakfast at the local greasy spoon and then back to veg out at Spence and Glenn’s.
We watched Personal Services and followed that with Blade. Then after I finally managed to get up enough energy to get off the sofa and make my way to my own home I watched Four Weddiings and a Funeral.

I’ve also been having a fun time getting to know new people over the weekend. Unusual for me to widen my circle of friends so much in one weekend.
Admittedly they were all Spence’s friends I met, well witht he exception of Carole & Paul that is! Bren lives right around the corner from me and was the first person to welcome me to the world that is out in the UK when I signed up in February last year. I met him a couple of weeks ago but Friday was the first time I really chatted to him properly. Nice.

Anyway I am rambling now cos I am tired and ready for bed.

Ticket Touts

If there had been ticket touts at Clapham Junction yesterday and today they would have made a fortune. I have never seen so many ticket inspectors in one place at a time in my life. I thought it was a convention at first. They were stopping everyone and cheking tickets on the way from the platforms and then again on the way to the platforms. This left a number of people on the walkway over the station queueing to buy a ticket at makeshift ticket offices.
I cannot believe so many people travel without a ticket. I always thought it was propaganda by the rail companies when they said they lost millions a week in revenue from fare dodgers. Now I can well believe it.
There was even an inspector on our service from Clapham to Olympia just in case you had managed to evade them at the station.
Pat and I decided they must be on some sort of commision they were that zealous. No basic salary but they get to keep half the fines they take or something.

strange questions

Why do people ask search engines questions?
Like the person who turned up here asking the “number of times to have sex in a week“. Why would you need to be told how many times to have sex in a week? Surely you would just do it as many times as you wanted?
If you are asking though I’d say as many as possible. Well of course I would. I’m getting none at the moment.

random thoughts

Whilst at Spence‘s Birthday party Mark and I chatted about the process of dating.
It occurred to us that normally when you meet someone you are shy and nervous in a bar situation so you drink. By the time you are sure you can go back to yours [or theirs] you have drunk enough that you probably are not gonna be able to do much.
Hardly a good indicator of how you would normally perform, or a good advert for a second meet up.

I was also wondering why it is you never get a decent nights sleep when you share a bed with someone and you are trying to be on your best behaviour.
Last night though I couldn’t sleep as I am now used to sleeping anyway I like in the bed – I have gotten very used to having my bed all to myself recently and enjoy it too! Also possibly because I shared a bed with a friend who is like a human hot water bottle and produces more heat than is quite possibly healthy for one person.
Oh and also white bedding and muddy Jack Russells are not a good combination.

Hardworking?

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100% ?

We have all been to those meetings where someone wants over 100%. How about
achieving 103%? Here’s a little math that might prove helpful. What makes life 100% ?

If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:
H A R D W O R K
8 1 18 4 23 15 18 11 = 98%

K N O W L E D G E
11 14 15 23 12 5 4 7 5 = 96%

But,
A T T I T U D E
1 20 20 9 20 21 4 5 = 100%

And,
B U L L S H I T
2 21 12 12 19 8 9 20 = 103%

So, it stands to reason that hard work and knowledge will get you close.
Attitude will get you there, but Bullshit will put you over the top.

And look how far ass kissing will take you.
A S S K I S S I N G
1 19 19 11 9 19 19 9 14 7 = 118%

NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT LIKE THAT BEFORE, HUH?