I mostly want to just go and become a recluse – I couldn’t sleep last night – lots on my mind – and today everything I have touched has fallen apart. I feel an overwhelming gloom settling like a thundercloud and it’s worrying me.

I’m feeling bad too as I broke my New Year resolution on the 5th day – well technically it was after midnight so the 6th day of 2002 and feel resigned to being a smoker for the rest of my life.

Oh and I am very very moody 🙁