I am currently readingThe Farewell Symphony which was a gift for my 30th birthday from one of my closest friends. It has taken me a while to get back into reading since living with my ex-partner who preferred to watch than read.
I have been constantly reminded throughout the book of parts of my life. I also wrote a few words for the mayfly project and all of which has left me thinking of all those things I wanted to do whilst younger.
One thought I have had recur almost every year or so since leaving school is how I wanted to have sex with my best friend but never managed to bring the subject up. I wonder what would have happened if we had. Would we have kept in contact or not? As it happens we haven’t kept in touch. Not for any reason other than our lives grew apart. It’s amazing that someone can be such an integral part of your life one day and not feature at all the following days and weeks.
Edward was definitely a straight boy – and maybe that’s why I wanted him so much. Still I certainly have very fond memories :o)
I wonder if he knew how much I lusted after him on our runs along the beach in the mornings before school or how our late night sleep overs caused me such agony.