and for those of you

and for those of you having men trouble then you can always try a virtuaguy for your desktop [thanks to pippa for the link]

you know when you do

you know when you do something and instantly regret it and then try and undo what you did and you can’t so you try to hide it – you always get caught out. You know sometimes though even getting caught isn’t bad it’s that fact that you did it in the first place and you have no control over anything after that moment. Recently I have managed to upset 2 people [possibly 3] in this way. I’m not going into details because somethings are not fit for publishing. I would like to have not upset them but the deed is done and there is no undo in life. crtl-z just doesn’t exist. So now it is back to the routine but everything has changed and I don’t like it. Normally I’m fine with things like that but recently lots of things have been weighing me down and now I’m at the point where just keeping my head above water is a huge effort. Trust is a 2 way street and I feel like I can’t express how I’m feeling for hurting other people or having them pass judgement so instead I am just staying quiet. Being this quiet isn’t good for me I’m sure, my mom always told me not to bottle things up in case you explode but unfortunately I have no alternative at the moment. This is sounding very depressing I know but hey you know what that’s kind of tough cos that’s how I’ve been feeling for a while now – it’s part of the reason I’ve been looking to move. I’m not sure if it’s London I don’t want to live in anymore or if it’s just because I need to change my life. I thought everything would be easier when I was single and for the most part it is but now I have no excuse for putting off decisions anymore. Gah beans and stuff.

eeps I better go pack

eeps I better go pack as I am off to Dublin straight from work tomorrow [my attempt to avoid the impending tube strike]. so I need a change of pants and a toothbrush….

Someone stumbled upon 8letters today

Someone stumbled upon 8letters today having searched for the phrase ‘crack outlook pst‘ I have no idea what this search means. This means that naturally my site does not contain information relating to this search. Looking at the other results however it looks like someone wanted to look at someone elses outlook mailbox. I definitely have never told anyone how to do that – mainly because I have no idea how you would go about it. For this and more disturbing search requests head on over to dsr.

today is May 1st and

today is May 1st and we are expecting the worst [may day riots]. In Clapham the riots will be for more Starbucks and Coffee Republics and a branch of River Island or the Gap, local residents are said to be up in arms that you can only fit 3 baby strollers in Starbucks on a Sunday and it simply will not do. Everyone hasa right to lazy Sunday coffee!

absolute genius Farpark : Character

absolute genius Farpark : Character Gallery thanks to dave for this link :o)

I was attempting to convince

I was attempting to convince davo of my innocence and happened to mention ‘I got a level 1 at innocentacting.com’ [he would surely rate a 7 or 8] what would email(‘you score’)?

I just got mailed these

I just got mailed these little gems of pure evil [definitely politically incorrect]
Mary had a little lamb
Its fleece was white and whispy.

But now that he’s got foot and mouth

It’s gone all black and crispy.

Mary had a little lamb
She called it baby Abby
They burned it in a great big pit
Cos its mouth and feet were scabby

Mary had a little lamb,
she called him Little Ralph,
But now he’s burning in a field
Because of foot and mouth.

I was playing around with

I was playing around with the template and have messed my table up big stylee – and it is too late to troubleshoot it now and it is way past my bedtime so the upshot is… tough it looks like pants and it will have to stay that way until tomorrow night. besides it’s the content you come here for anyways email(‘right’)?

okay so I have fixed

okay so I have fixed the tables and played with the archives and removed some of the graphics which caused a heavy load for the amount of hits the site now gets so it’s a slightly slimmed down version 2.5
Elric has been offering to help me with my javascript and include files and telling me I should be using homesite instead of working the way I am used to and happy with. Those of you who know me can imagine my responses.
It was a really busy day at work today but I managed to make it home in 1 piece which was good. Also got a new insert for my diary – only a year after the old one ran out – so hopefully the rest of the year will be a bit more organised. I was using meeting maker at work but of course we can’t access that from home and anyways sometimes there is just no substitute for a pen and paper really [even if it’s just to doodle on during meetings].