blogger b

In case any one was doubting who Blogger A-E were you can now take a test.
what letter are you?
Turns out I am most like blogger B – who would have thought?

random thoughts

you know I really shouldn’t think so much – I am convinced that is part of the reason I have avoided staying in on my own this week. I have so started to over analyze and obsess. It can’t be good for me. It started with the wierd relationship I have with my friends. I have slept with most of them – not actually when they were friends but I used to go out with a lot of them and then after the relationship ended we remained friends. Many people think this is wierd but I really don;t think you can spend so much time getting to know someone and love them and then suddenly switch off completely having no more to do with them. So as I say I have a wierd relationship with my friends. I know them more intimately than is possibly good.
Sometimes I think that people remain friends after relationships because they can’t bear it to be over. They need to feel close still and hope as they say springs eternal. Then I wonder were this leaves me. Does this mean I am subliminally remaining friends with people in the hopes of some day revisiting the relationship, kind of like a back up plan. I know that this isn’t the case really but a little doubt creeps in now and again. If I actually think about sleeping with any of my ex’s it is something I know I could not do – kind of like thinking about sleeping with a girl I guess. All of a sudden the ex is no longer a person that is attractive sexually. A big change really from when you first met them it’s like a lifecycle I guess. So although I know I don’t find them sexually attractive anymore I still feel guilty about the history.
This last week I’ve been the complete opposite having slept with friends and now wondering what is the difference between a relationship and a friendship. If it is just sex then does that mean we are no longer friends? Surely it’s more complicated than that. Really though what do you share with a partner that you don’t with your friends? I certainly have relationships with my friends that include everything except the sex. I know I can call them anytime if I am worried or scared, happy or sad, sick or in full health. There is nothing I would not consider sharing with my friends. Does this mean I should only sleep with strangers? Somehow it doesn’t feel the same sleeping with someone you don’t have feelings for. Which means you become friends with someone you fancy and then hey back to square one I guess you end up sleeping with a friend.
so erm I think I’ve rambled enough now…

pub quiz

yes I know it’s wednesday. Andrew and I went to Bar ABV for the quiz and managed a miraculous 29 [or something] forgot the actual amount as I was in shock at the double figures.
Michael from the bar did help us out a bit though 🙂
Scally is having trauma about flights – like whether to fly back from NY only to fly back out to Dulles the following day – international jet set eh? gotta love it

gah

the most annoying fucker in the world has got Quincy ME theme tune on his mobile phone louder than a bloody fire alarm and thinks it’s amusing to sit and ring it every 5 minutes. Next time he goes to get a coffee I’m gonna break it in half.

search round up

okay why does porn — dumping on chest have me at #2 on the google charts?
or for that matter why they have me at #6 for hobbit feet elf ears pictures

they read my mind

This:

Equals this:
You feel worn out, physically and mentally. Recently the going has been tough .. and it looks as if there is still a considerable way for you to go before you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. If only you could put a protecting wall around yourself and cut yourself off from the rest of the world – be it even for only a little while – how wonderful it would be, but you can’t … so you need to bear with it. Just when everything will seem at its lowest ebb you will find that there is a turnabout … and your problems will seem to find a way of resolving themselves.

Uncanny really – anyone would think they had known about my party at the weekend 🙂
Go try it yourself – you know you want to. [link via one tablet daily]
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world of my own

no not a comment on my saturday and sunday 😉
Don’t you just hate waking up to an annoyingly catchy song which you hate and then can’t get out of your head? 7.30 this morning boyzone/a1/westlife or whoever it is and world of my own [or whatever it’s called but it has world of my own in the chorus somewhere] and now I have been humming it in the shower at the train station – caught myself wittering world of my own a few times in the office gah!
Party update
there is now photographic evidence of the party 🙁 I’ll post them when I get a chance.
stories keep hitting the newsdesk – something about snogging competition winners etc etc
I’ll be putting a few quotes together but in the meantime you can leave your own reminders/stories on the comments – I still reserve the right to edit them though 😉
oh and my mobile is broken so I have no ones numbers anymore 🙁

search round up

by far the most disturbing is how to fuck a virgin without pain. I don’t know any virgins so quite why I am second billing for this is beyond me – oh and the fact I have never written a guide about it either…
nude pics fo my friend changing is positively tame by comparison.
and as for nude abn amro I’m not sure if they mean the bank or a worker – Steve coincidentally does work for them – and judging by the party events would not be adverse to nudity 😉
oh and I seem to have newly been indexed on freeserve