who would have thought a

who would have thought a little tiny bundle of fluff could have caused so much havoc? I stayed around at steve’s a couple of weeks ago and met his adorable little kitten [must post that to ickle.org] called stella. Now stella and I got on really well – except she made me wheeze a little – which I gave no thought to at all. So anyways friday night meet steve at the airport and head on back to his – I am there for approx 5 minutes before I start to wheeze and cough – so after a little cajoling I take an ani-histamine in case I am allergic to the little bundle of fluff and all was well. Went to meet the outlaws in east london and then jacs in hacney and then back to Steves flat for the night – we ordered chinese and stuff and as the doorbell went to announce said food [completely inappropriate timing too] I start coughing again – in fact not only do I start wheezing but thought i was going to die on the floor of a flat in finchley. So we made a hasty retreat to mine in St Reatham where I managed to breathe normally again. Steve was a complete star and was patient and stuff. Unfortunately though it seems to have left a lasting impression on my lungs – which feel like they have been to hell and back. Still it mean I have quit smoking again – not that I had much choice really – I couldn’t breathe as it is without adding smoke and stuff into the mix.
I hate being sick too – not a good patient šŸ™ so thanks are due to boyfs with the patience of a saint today I think

well timed delivery of My

well timed delivery of My Beautiful Laundrette by mail this morning meant I didn’t have to suffer daytime TV today :o) I distinctly remmeber having to watch this with the volume turned down and subtitles on when I was living at home and it was screened I think on Channel 4 when they were running a series of late night films with little red triangles in the corner. So you had a comic mix of dodgy pseudo-porn foreign films and gay themed films all mixed into the late night schedule. I was amazed by how candid the film was though – no one actually comes out and it seems almost natural that the two boys fall in love. I so wanted to move to London thinking the entire place would be that accepting. So my little trip down memory lane was fab and just what I needed today.

well still a bit down

well still a bit down today – so no posts – other than to say looking forward to the weekend and hope to be well and truly cheered up by Monday. May pop to the sewers on sunday night but otherwise very few plans – except to meet up with Jacs Saturday and wish her luck with the triathalon.

:( I think I may

šŸ™ I think I may go and check the insurance policy on my mortgage payments.

You know sometimes you feel

You know sometimes you feel like the world is dumping on you from a great height. Today I have decided to get some of it off my chest as it is starting to eat away inside me and I’m sure that isn’t good for my karma.
A while a go a work colleague was stuck at very short notice for somewhere to stay over Christmas and New Year so I naturally offered my spare room until they got sorted [no rent or anything as this was a guy kicke out of his home] and the offer was until he found somewhere to stay.
So this was fine until he decided rather than look for somewhere to stay he would like to just rent the spare room from me. He was planning on leaving the country in June anyway so wouldn’t be able to get a lease for such a short period. By this time I was kind of used to him being around so we agreed a nominal rent [after all he had just had a child and needed his cash].

All ticked along with me not charging bills or anything as I would be paying them if I lived alone anyways and I was sure the extra gas and electricity would not amount to much. Now call me a mug but when he bought himself a new ?2k laptop I figured he had a loan or something or his folks had paid – as he was supposed to be broke. We did however revisit the subject of bills [especially as by this stage he had stopped contributing to groceries] and he agreed to pay towards [not half but an amount towards] the general bills in addition to his rent.
Now you may think I earn too much or something but he never contributed to the bills ever or the groceries since April and I never considered checking his rent was paying each month – what with travelling and expense claims and erratic payments into my account I just presumed he was paying. Now he moved out on Sunday and on the Friday I discovered he had not paid rent for basically the last 3 months – so now I am left feeling that you know he bought loads of cool new stuff whilst staying – new laptop, loads of new scuba gear and has now fucked off to work in the carribean leaving me out of pocket and depressed.
I keep thinking of all the things I could do with the money – like pay off credit cards or go on holiday or buy new sofa’s [since I have been without sofa’s since May]. I feel I should write him a mail but then think well fuck it it’s not like he is going to worry about it now he is in the carribean is it? I just feel completely drained and used and abused and wonder if I will ever be as welcoming into my home again.

I’m feeling kind of guilty

I’m feeling kind of guilty now though šŸ™ poor Jack will have forgotten what I look like šŸ™

I think this is a

I think this is a bit harsh for a wednesday morning “Also a little concerned that I am going out with a guy who can sleep so
well after abondoning his little forlorn puppy – even I was concerned at
the thought of Jack sitting looking at the door, only for it never to open.
I only hope his other fathers aren’t as heartless :-)”
okay so I’ll admit to not seeing jack for a fortnight but I have been busy having a social life for the first time in ages …

I have not laughed so

I have not laughed so hard in ages as I have just now reading a little anecdote from Meg’s flatmate from hell series | the seating rule.

If I didn’t know better

If I didn’t know better I would think this was a joke. A republican mayor moving in with 2 gay men? It sounds like a sitcom idea! With the apartment having three bedrooms and five bathrooms there will be no fights for the shower at least šŸ˜‰